Yesterday I forgot who I was. Usually I remember. Or, I am in the process of remembering, rather. Usually the more I remember the more I learn how powerful I am.
I have remembered a life before. I could feel my fist raised in the air. I could feel the hyper-vigilance in my shoulders and neck. My head was arched back and I was crying, “Africa”, with every ounce of my want to live. Only the voice that I heard was not my own and the “A” was short “a” and the “I” was a long “eeee”. I could feel my full upper lip touching my nose and then I could see my face. My skin is dark, almost black. My eyes are squinted in the Sun, making wrinkles on my forehead. My brow is furrowed together forming a line, one line. I am calling to others from the depths of my soul, to get them with me. I don’t know where I am or what I’m doing but I can feel that their are many with me and I know it is our last chance to try, together.
I was warring in that life. I remember I was powerful.
I remember being about 7 and playing in a meadow. I remember making tapestries and rugs with my mother in a loom. My hair is black and shiny just like my mother’s and my skin is red from the Sun.
I feel one with nature. I remember that I am intuitive.
I have been bound, stripped naked, tortured, resigned to die. That time my skin was more yellow than it is now and my hair was shinier black.
I remember feeling my bones broken, laying on the floor, unable to move my jaw as I looked through the screen of my burka. I tried to push myself from the floor but only my right arm would work. I did not see my skin color that time. But I saw his, who is hurting me.
Yesterday, I forgot who I was! I tried to rethink everything I said, was going to say, might have said, could say…good God! Yesterday I was ridden with fear about what COULD happen. I was a inferior, less than, frightened.There was no power. I had to take time and go within. I had to get quiet with Creator and feel my soul. I had to remember who I AM
Today, I remember WHO I AM. I am a Spiritual Warrior. I am all colors, I am male, I am female. I am human. I am one. I am all people. I AM HERE.
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU